I'm telling you. This is the best/awesome cushion thingy i've tried so far.

like OMG you seriously have to try this. i swear you'll like it too.

i bought this from Hermo. everyone know how much i like Makeup.

Hermo has been my favorite online shop so far. bahahaa.

*all my lippy. tadaaaa!~*

lia list kan ape lipstick yang lia simpan. huhu

done!

that's all of it.

kebanyakan lipstick ni memang best seller so dah ramai yang buat swatches, tutorial, review etc.

i wish to review. tapi tak reti bahasa beauty macam some bloggers buat. 

so kalau ada sumur diladang

umur panjang

ada masa review.

tq :)

#two years has/have passed since she were born

i end up crying looking at her pictures

cepat sangat masa berlalu.

dari auni kecil tak pernah lagi buat album gambar dia.

suddenly rasa takut sangat i'll end up hilang semua gambar dia.

*sebab diri sendiri tak banyak gambar masa kecil*

luckily found this #lifebuuk apps

 my little tiny auni not little nemore :)

 i'm a happy wife. a happy mama :)

Dengan izin dan perancangan Allah, my baby dapat melihat dunia lebih awal. seawal 6 Mac 2014. 

Yes, my baby is premature baby. Alhamdulillah membesar dengan sihat.

on my 34weeks pregnancy, again another check up at Az-Zahrah Bangi on 5 Mac 2014 and nak buat test minum air gula jugak sebab Hosp Serdang suggest buat before gave birth. So lepas buat test, bacaan tinggi jugak la. bila turn jumpa doktor, dia advise buat BSP test esoknya sebanyak 4x. 8am, 12pm, 6pm, 10pm.

kene puasa 2 jam before test. lepas tu dia check baby, she says the baby ok this and this and this. ETA lagi 2 minggu. ok setel. Esoknya drive ke Az-Zahrah mcm biasa utk buat test 8am. and the result ok. balik rumah, makan-makan. and on 12pm test husband pulak hantarkan. and the result still ok. then we both go for lunch makan nasi beriani. yums!

lepas balik rumah rase badan tak larat sangat. lepas zohor mintak husband sapu minyak and urut sikit pinggang sebab rase lenguh and sakit sakit sikit. ingatkan sebab nak buang air besar ke ape. husband suruh duduk lama2 kat toilet pon nothing. zero. so cakap dengan husband nak baring and tidor kejap. bangun je dari tidur dalam pukul 4 mcm tu terus rase mcm nak patah pinggang. bertahan sorang2 dalam bilik about 15 minutes sampai satu tahap mmg tak tahan sangat panggil husband menangis2 bagitau "yaya cakap kalau rase pinggang nak tercabut tu maknenye contraction". husband terkejut sangat. and risau. then whatsapp kakak. kakak pon terkejut. suruh kira selang masa pulak. 5 to 6 minutes. tuhan je la tau rase mcm dah takde pinggang. mase tu pukul 5 dah. husband suruh siap2 pergi Az-Zahrah and check.

Sampai Az-Zahrah, nama lambat panggil. sakitnye menahan. bila nurse dah panggil masuk bilik doktor keep asking question this and that and suruh baring. tanye skrg sakit tak. bila bagitau die tekan2 perut. and cakap "ni bukan contraction ni, tak keras pon perut". habis sakit yg sakit sangat ni kenapa. doc suruh buat test air kencing. bila g toilet, nak duduk pon sakit, rase mcm baby dah takde pelindung. and ade darah :(

Doc suruh buat CTG pulak. dihantar ke tingkat 2. baring dalam keadaan sakit, sejuk, pening buatkan saya muntah 3x dalam bilik tu. then back to doc's room tingkat bawah. die ckp mungkin contraction sikit. 

WHAT? SIKIT?

dah tak larat dah nak dengar ape die ckp. die suruh masuk wad. husband pergi bayar duit nak masuk wad. saya pulak mintak izin nak baring. so dorang hantar la dekat katil belakang. teguling sana, teguling sini. lepas tu mintak nak check bukaan. lepas check, buat muka. panggil another person from tingkat atas to check. again, buat muka. tanya lah kenapa. "Bukaan puan dah 8cm ni, puan mmg takde rasa nak teran ke?" terkejut sangat dengar. sbb tu sakit sangat. air ketuban pon kurang. suspek dah leaking. takde pulak rase nak meneran. Diorang cakap they can't handle premature baby punya kes. den diorang ask me to decide which hospital to refer. Hospital Serdang or Kajang. of course pilih Serdang. then diorang cancel and nak hantar ke Putrajaya. me and husband just said ok. husband refund balik duit.

Dinaikkan ke katil ambulans, diberi suntikan, drip air, masuk je dalam ambulans terus rasa nak teran. tapi disuruh tahan. oh my. dia bawak laju gila, husband follow belakang. tapi dalam keadaan yg sakit sangat tu masih tarik2 ape yg ade kat kepala and question nape tak sampai2. husband advise baca doa nabi yunus banyak2. sampai je Hospital Putrajaya, terus dikejarkan ke labor room. pasang CTG. check bukaan. and the doc said.

"Bacaan jantung da tak cantik dah ni, bila2 puan rasa sakit nak teran puan teran je"

dah diberi izin, teran sekuat hati sebab sakit sangat and risaukan baby. My husband was there too, usapkan kepala, bacakan doa, bagi semangat. doc mintak teran lama2 sebab teran dah betul tapi nafas pendek2. dok tanya nak rasa tak kepala baby. sebab dah keluar sikit, dok mintak teran lagi panjang. sebaik pegang kepala terasa rambut dan ubun baby. alhamdulillah Allah and suami bagi semangat. push harder and longer than before. terus terasa kepala dah keluar sepenuhnya. and then baby keluar completely. 8:32PM masuk labor room and 8:48PM selamat melahirkan. less than 15 minutes! i cried with husband. our baby cried too. husband cakap "B, kita dah ada baby". Tuhan je la rase betapa happynye saat tu. betul kata org. sakit melahirkan akan hilang sebaik tau baby dah keluar and dengar tangisannya. tak dapat tgk baby sbb baby prem and takut jangkitan. baby dibawa terus ke NICU. tanpa tahu jantina, tanpa tahu rupa. doc ask me to calm and let the MO jahit dulu. and husband came back and says, kita dapat baby girl. :)

i love my husband

i love my daughter

my little tiny auni

#auninajlaa :)

alhamdulillah auni membesar dengan sihat sekarang. auni dah 44hari :) and saya dah habis pantang! yes, having premature baby mmg sangat mencabar and kene banyak bersabar. tu lah keindahan dan nikmat being a woman and a mom. you get the chance to feel everything. ALHAMDULILLAH SYUKUR.